More than 2 Year..........
Two year has been passed away but still I did not forget her....I don't know what is it now. But people say it is called love and I believe in it so. Its not like I never seen any other girl in this period of time. but still I always saw her face everywhere. She has made a place in my heart so deep that can not be filled by anyone else. Many times, I tried to anger on her but never succeed. Just few month back she left her job, mean she is not in my team now. I did not see her, not even talk to her since she left job. Actually I was not talking to her since she left me, but still just because of same team, I have to talk but I never ever tried, It was always her, Who used to talk but most of the time it is official purpose.
I don't know what people think when they left a person like me. You promised to live together, you planned for marriage. We enjoyed very good time together. I never explore the world like before.It was her who made my life very beautiful, Today also when I recall those days, I feel very good that at least I am, one of the luckiest person on earth who got love. Not for long time but still ,a moment of true love is like a drop of polio vaccine without which you may have to suffer whole life. So, at least I don't have regret of not having that important drop of life. I had many drops of love to live many life........
May be , I am nothing for her but if she remember me somewhere in her life. Good or bad. That will be enough for me. It is really very very painful when someone who is very precious to you, will think negative for you. I hardly demand anything from her, I always used to say....."bus mere sath rahna aise hi zindagi bhai" and she always replied with lots of love in her eyes that..."I will". These two words always made me very special and lucky. I have some good memory of our past life that I used to see sometime when I feel her love.
Today Also I am thinking about her.....I am in United States since last 6 months and she is in Africa with her husband. I never ever try to contact her, may be she would be uncomfortable while she talk to me in front of her husband. As I already told you in my previous blogs that she is not good in lying and even less confident. It is very easy for others to read her face. She can't hide her feeling....
I know sometimes when she broke up with me, She was afraid of me that If I did something wrong to her. If I will tell our love story to everyone and about out relationship. And also she was afraid that If I do something wrong to myself, then also she may suffer some problem because she was supposed to be responsible for that. But I am not a week person who will either ruin his life or her life. I knew that this is her life and she has complete right to live with anyone. And I always respect to her decision but the only thing that made me cry......she change her thought. And she used to say that people are selfish when it comes to their life. The one to whom I knew, was a very nice girl who help other and was ready to spend her life with me. Now I was talking to a different girl who was just worried about her family, her sister and her so called status....
I don't want to discuss any caste issue here. Otherwise that would be be another chapter to describe her and her family's dual life.
I am 30 year old now and I am feeling this first time in my life. So, this is my unconditional love towards her and just want to let her know that still I love her...And she would always be a part of my life....no matter what she did to me and she made me feel at the last time of our relationship. I pray for her good life.....
I don't know when someone will love me as I love her............SEARCHING ???
Two year has been passed away but still I did not forget her....I don't know what is it now. But people say it is called love and I believe in it so. Its not like I never seen any other girl in this period of time. but still I always saw her face everywhere. She has made a place in my heart so deep that can not be filled by anyone else. Many times, I tried to anger on her but never succeed. Just few month back she left her job, mean she is not in my team now. I did not see her, not even talk to her since she left job. Actually I was not talking to her since she left me, but still just because of same team, I have to talk but I never ever tried, It was always her, Who used to talk but most of the time it is official purpose.
I don't know what people think when they left a person like me. You promised to live together, you planned for marriage. We enjoyed very good time together. I never explore the world like before.It was her who made my life very beautiful, Today also when I recall those days, I feel very good that at least I am, one of the luckiest person on earth who got love. Not for long time but still ,a moment of true love is like a drop of polio vaccine without which you may have to suffer whole life. So, at least I don't have regret of not having that important drop of life. I had many drops of love to live many life........
May be , I am nothing for her but if she remember me somewhere in her life. Good or bad. That will be enough for me. It is really very very painful when someone who is very precious to you, will think negative for you. I hardly demand anything from her, I always used to say....."bus mere sath rahna aise hi zindagi bhai" and she always replied with lots of love in her eyes that..."I will". These two words always made me very special and lucky. I have some good memory of our past life that I used to see sometime when I feel her love.
Today Also I am thinking about her.....I am in United States since last 6 months and she is in Africa with her husband. I never ever try to contact her, may be she would be uncomfortable while she talk to me in front of her husband. As I already told you in my previous blogs that she is not good in lying and even less confident. It is very easy for others to read her face. She can't hide her feeling....
I know sometimes when she broke up with me, She was afraid of me that If I did something wrong to her. If I will tell our love story to everyone and about out relationship. And also she was afraid that If I do something wrong to myself, then also she may suffer some problem because she was supposed to be responsible for that. But I am not a week person who will either ruin his life or her life. I knew that this is her life and she has complete right to live with anyone. And I always respect to her decision but the only thing that made me cry......she change her thought. And she used to say that people are selfish when it comes to their life. The one to whom I knew, was a very nice girl who help other and was ready to spend her life with me. Now I was talking to a different girl who was just worried about her family, her sister and her so called status....
I don't want to discuss any caste issue here. Otherwise that would be be another chapter to describe her and her family's dual life.
I am 30 year old now and I am feeling this first time in my life. So, this is my unconditional love towards her and just want to let her know that still I love her...And she would always be a part of my life....no matter what she did to me and she made me feel at the last time of our relationship. I pray for her good life.....
I don't know when someone will love me as I love her............SEARCHING ???
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