Now i made her so comfortable with me so that she can talk to me without hesitation. And i was succeeded. I was thinking that i would be happy without her but that was not true. This time again i went home on 6 April 2012. I chatted with her through sms but still i was unhappy. Because that was not a chat in which we both were involved. That was general talk, discussing some random things.
I don't know,why am i remembering the trip to the Taaj.That day i was very happy , you can say one of my best day in my life. I can not say that this is the only best day because in the past few month she did make days very special to me. When she said "I LOVE YOU" to MEEEE on 23 Nov 2011 ,that was the biggest day in my life till that day. I was so happy ,I was feeling the luckiest person in the earth. Who was in love with a beautiful and sensible girl. Who knew how to talk people. That is one of her attitude, I like the most...
Lets move to the other side of this true LO?VE story...I put a question mark between LOVE......because there is a doubt.....Is this a LOVE story ????......As she don't know what is this feeling......
She is saying to me that she is unsure. But can u feel the real truth behind this that she did not have power to ask her parent that don't send me the biodata for marriage, at least not now ,she was receiving continuously. Reading those biodata's.I dont know what was she thinking or in which mood she was seeing all those Bio data .And when her parents asked her about her kundli ,she searched and gave to her dad.... :( :( :(
And i was thinking that she will fight for me against her parents.One side she put me in dilemma (Neither she was leaving me nor accepting me) and other side ,she was enjoying her life with her nephew, sister and her very intelligent jiju who knew everything about me ,even he did not meet me.
She did not bother about me at all. But she used to say that she care for me. But i never feel it .May be God know the way how she cares for me. May be she cares in her heart. But how would i know that she cares. I am not God kind of person.I am simple man who care very much the feeling of love. But if you love and care someone then it is good to express it, just show your care and love to whom you love and care.
Now i don't know about her but slowly and slowly i am realising that what did she want two month back . She is going to get soon. Currently i am coming back to noida, writing this while on train. We both were chatting when i boarded the train. We were chatting and discussing one thing but when she did not have answer of my question,she stopped chat and became angry. This is her habit. This time when i was in my home, i was feeling alone so i want to discuss my feeling to someone who is very close to me. And she is the only person right now. So i sent her a sms ,i have lots of things to talk to you but i cannot talk these stuff on phone or sms. I want to talk face to face. But she was forcing me to discuss on sms. I again insisted her that i can not discuss this on sms ,it is my real feeling and i dont want my feeling to discuss on phone. I was not comfortable. Then she realized and said okay. But now i dont want to discuss with her because that discussion belongs to my family and i dont want to discuss that with a ............I dont want that someone in near future would make fun of my family. I love her so much and keep loving. But my family respect is also very important to me....
I reached home......one hour has been passed. I was lying on my bed. Suddenly, I got one sms from her....."Rajender place a jao". I was little shocked but very much....because I have already shocked many times from her. So it did not make much difference to me. I replied "kya hua ?". She again replied with her anger attitude.." Nahi ana ?"...I sent "Dhamki de rahi ho ? "... she replied "No"....Then our discussion went normal......I decided to go there...I asked where ? She asked me again "Nirula's or Mac's ? ?"....
I thought little and asked her to wait in Nirula's....A little hope was in my heart again...So I thought Nirula's is the best option for that because this is the place where we met alone first time on her birthday. :) :)
I reached there, she was waiting for me........We chatted normally....met just like a friend, discussing some random topic again,,,,She said once....."Mera milne ka mann ho raha tha..". I said "Good". We were both together till evening around 1930 hours.Then I left her to her metro station...And I came back...Her last message for that day was "ghar pahuchna to bata dena..". I was very happy again.May be some good things would be coming in near future.but.....
But again that was a myth for me.....She was looking very happy when we met...I was very positive but I don't know what happened again....I reached home around 2200 Hours. I sent her 3-4 message..but did not reply even for my one sms....I waited till 0030 hours.....Then my day was over..I sent her my last sms that is "good night :) ".......I was thinking may be she might busy after reaching home..but I woke up in the morning..I have one sms from her...stating "what if I never get sure about you ?"....I am shocked again..But not a new thing for me....I was habitual now....I replied "you are not doing good to you. And for me.I am not sure.".
She did not reply me back....And next day was passed she did not even want to talk to me that day....I sent her 5-6 message and she just replied back...with no positive energy. I was feeling that she was forced to reply my sms. So I stopped smsing to her......but before going to bed today 9 April 2012. I will send a last message again that is "Good Night :) and Take care".......So now I am going to stop here.... lets hope for the good thing....
I don't know,why am i remembering the trip to the Taaj.That day i was very happy , you can say one of my best day in my life. I can not say that this is the only best day because in the past few month she did make days very special to me. When she said "I LOVE YOU" to MEEEE on 23 Nov 2011 ,that was the biggest day in my life till that day. I was so happy ,I was feeling the luckiest person in the earth. Who was in love with a beautiful and sensible girl. Who knew how to talk people. That is one of her attitude, I like the most...
Lets move to the other side of this true LO?VE story...I put a question mark between LOVE......because there is a doubt.....Is this a LOVE story ????......As she don't know what is this feeling......
She is saying to me that she is unsure. But can u feel the real truth behind this that she did not have power to ask her parent that don't send me the biodata for marriage, at least not now ,she was receiving continuously. Reading those biodata's.I dont know what was she thinking or in which mood she was seeing all those Bio data .And when her parents asked her about her kundli ,she searched and gave to her dad.... :( :( :(
And i was thinking that she will fight for me against her parents.One side she put me in dilemma (Neither she was leaving me nor accepting me) and other side ,she was enjoying her life with her nephew, sister and her very intelligent jiju who knew everything about me ,even he did not meet me.
She did not bother about me at all. But she used to say that she care for me. But i never feel it .May be God know the way how she cares for me. May be she cares in her heart. But how would i know that she cares. I am not God kind of person.I am simple man who care very much the feeling of love. But if you love and care someone then it is good to express it, just show your care and love to whom you love and care.
Now i don't know about her but slowly and slowly i am realising that what did she want two month back . She is going to get soon. Currently i am coming back to noida, writing this while on train. We both were chatting when i boarded the train. We were chatting and discussing one thing but when she did not have answer of my question,she stopped chat and became angry. This is her habit. This time when i was in my home, i was feeling alone so i want to discuss my feeling to someone who is very close to me. And she is the only person right now. So i sent her a sms ,i have lots of things to talk to you but i cannot talk these stuff on phone or sms. I want to talk face to face. But she was forcing me to discuss on sms. I again insisted her that i can not discuss this on sms ,it is my real feeling and i dont want my feeling to discuss on phone. I was not comfortable. Then she realized and said okay. But now i dont want to discuss with her because that discussion belongs to my family and i dont want to discuss that with a ............I dont want that someone in near future would make fun of my family. I love her so much and keep loving. But my family respect is also very important to me....
I reached home......one hour has been passed. I was lying on my bed. Suddenly, I got one sms from her....."Rajender place a jao". I was little shocked but very much....because I have already shocked many times from her. So it did not make much difference to me. I replied "kya hua ?". She again replied with her anger attitude.." Nahi ana ?"...I sent "Dhamki de rahi ho ? "... she replied "No"....Then our discussion went normal......I decided to go there...I asked where ? She asked me again "Nirula's or Mac's ? ?"....
I thought little and asked her to wait in Nirula's....A little hope was in my heart again...So I thought Nirula's is the best option for that because this is the place where we met alone first time on her birthday. :) :)
I reached there, she was waiting for me........We chatted normally....met just like a friend, discussing some random topic again,,,,She said once....."Mera milne ka mann ho raha tha..". I said "Good". We were both together till evening around 1930 hours.Then I left her to her metro station...And I came back...Her last message for that day was "ghar pahuchna to bata dena..". I was very happy again.May be some good things would be coming in near future.but.....
But again that was a myth for me.....She was looking very happy when we met...I was very positive but I don't know what happened again....I reached home around 2200 Hours. I sent her 3-4 message..but did not reply even for my one sms....I waited till 0030 hours.....Then my day was over..I sent her my last sms that is "good night :) ".......I was thinking may be she might busy after reaching home..but I woke up in the morning..I have one sms from her...stating "what if I never get sure about you ?"....I am shocked again..But not a new thing for me....I was habitual now....I replied "you are not doing good to you. And for me.I am not sure.".
She did not reply me back....And next day was passed she did not even want to talk to me that day....I sent her 5-6 message and she just replied back...with no positive energy. I was feeling that she was forced to reply my sms. So I stopped smsing to her......but before going to bed today 9 April 2012. I will send a last message again that is "Good Night :) and Take care".......So now I am going to stop here.... lets hope for the good thing....
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